salam,
people i swear i should be studying now. i won't say a thing, u can say i am procrastinating and i really don't wanna make excuses. just came from khaira's place and i feel like to talk instead of studying...........meanwhile exams is already really really close.
so last week i went out of town somewhere north from frankfurt, i've booked the train seat so i simply seated there and accidentally an old man came and asked whether was the seat next to me free. i was so surprised that he seemed sooo friendly unlike the most cold germans, we were a lil bit unlucky then that our train got 10 min delayed so the man beside me was murmuring and complaining with a light laughter, then he took some paper and started to read them. they looked like script from university, oops maybe he's taking his Ph.D or a professor, i thought. so bad there was another announcement that out train was having a 5 minutes extra delay, the man kept looking at his watch and laughed to me.
then i asked him where was he going, it was hannover.
it turned out that he was going to speak in a conference and he probably be late due to our train's delay, and yes my guess was right! he is a professor in the medical faculty of goethe university frankfurt.
after a short time he realized that i put blue nail polish only on my left ring finger and asked me if it has a particular meaning. of course no..... it was just for fun. fyi i like to put different color to my finger ring to replace the cuteness of a ring, i know, i know its just me lol. he thought it has a meaning as he knows in some country ladies have cultural habits or restrictions related to fingers. then i asked him to guess where do i come from and after some guesses he decided to say malaysia. after i revealed i come from indonesia, he told me some of his experience in indonesia yea he said he don't really like bali beside ubud, he enjoys jogjakarta the most, bandung hat ihm nicht gefallen, and he barely got some sleep in jakarta because it's so noisy and hectic he said, even when it was in 1981 that time.
shit....1981? oooold time. we laughed at the fact that i wasn't born yet that time. he continued reading his paper then i started to put back my silence as i thought i would bother him concentrating if i asked more questions.
i enjoed my time playing some games in my tablet then the professor has finished reviewing his paper, he directly talked to me about indonesia. about tanah toraja which he has been to and about maternal culture of minangkabau, aaa he asked me also about a woman i didn't know, he said she's quite famous hahaha OH MY GOD AM I EVEN INDONESIAN?
we talked about muslim majority in indonesia, bahasa, foods, medicine, about skin (as he is skin specialist), about some cities in germany that the finds attractive, a lot actually, but he commented on my games even tried to play.
er hat kaum zeit zum spielen, naja wegen arbeit hat er gesagt, so ist das leben. he always wanted to learn spanish but got no time yea i can imagine how bad it is.........
i even asked if i could know how old he is. i guess 60. BINGO +3 he is 63.
it was a good guess already he said, because to guess someone's age who comes from other continent is hard, because our skin pigment isn't that similar. i thought he has grandchild already, but not yet. i hope he will, soon.
i don't know the essence of talking about this but i swear he is the kindest german i ever met, because i am pretty much an awkward person and getting more awkward if i shoud talk in deutsch as i think my speaking is really really really ewwww. i googled him after i got home as i know he teaches dermatology.
dear mr. professor thank you that at least you make germany feels nicer,
salam
ps: i think the grammar inaccuracy level in this post is beyond normal. sorry :p
July 12, 2015
July 09, 2015
heat / summer / colors
Salam,
i wish you all doin fine, dear readers.
last week was just like literally summer torment i overslept after i studied and bam i woke up and was like ITS SO HOT GOD PLEASE FORGIVE MY SINS!!!
everytime. i. woke up.
because simply the temp was essentially reaching ca 40 degree celcius
yes, #thissummerissohot #literallyhot #heatup #cryinglikeababy
i mean, i really miss you......dear air conditioner :"
my first summer in my new flat and it turns out to be a free sauna because the daylight exposes my walls directly like 12 pm to 7 pm is so far the worst i can remember. even underwear felt too much.
i preferably go to the dept store nearby or bookstore or even the supermarkt because the library is also a torture. but today is beyond fine, the breeze makes me so thankful and the temp drops a bit degrees.
everybody is literally happy with today's weather i guess.
so this summer i rather feel excited because i get my enthusiasm into colors back!
yap i think i used to be a person who maintained the color scheme in my daily outfits, it wasn't that hardcore but at least i tried to have two pieces in the same color range. then this past year i got into the phase which i hate to mix and match colors i just loveeee neutrals, black and grey in particular.
well, i think some reasons why:
1. having 4 seasons makes me feel troublesome in choosing clothes.
especially because i am wearing Hijab. example is when i had a well matched top and trousers but then my top was with some kind of motive, print or ornament, so all i needed was a nice plain shawl but then it wasn't thick enough for winter all i had was a thicker Hijab in same color but it had motive too. so i prefer having all black, kinda easy to combine.
2. i was so nomadic
university things and stuffs i kept moving and i left my treasures somewhere to be picked later up when i got settled, i definitely didn't have the ability to bring a lot. so i chose some neutrals with me for a while i just wore them. definitely satisfying.
3. i was getting minimalist
was getting more and more and more inattentive about colors
4. darks make me feel covered and comfortable
and now voila!
its back.
i am so attracted to colors just exactly like the old days.
i consider purple and turquoise as my most fave color, but then i love the black-grey-white gang. then now pink even yellow and light blue are my current delights.
for God's sake i don't even know why this is happening to me, i always have my all time fave colors and some my current fave colors like, please dear self, isn't that similar to loving all the colors or even having no favorite? it keeps changing duh.
weird.
and yes i think i have also the my-secretive-fave-color, i just realized after seeing so many stuffs i have are basically in this color even if i never consider it as my fave.
can u guess which color is that?
salam!
i wish you all doin fine, dear readers.
last week was just like literally summer torment i overslept after i studied and bam i woke up and was like ITS SO HOT GOD PLEASE FORGIVE MY SINS!!!
everytime. i. woke up.
because simply the temp was essentially reaching ca 40 degree celcius
yes, #thissummerissohot #literallyhot #heatup #cryinglikeababy
i mean, i really miss you......dear air conditioner :"
my first summer in my new flat and it turns out to be a free sauna because the daylight exposes my walls directly like 12 pm to 7 pm is so far the worst i can remember. even underwear felt too much.
i preferably go to the dept store nearby or bookstore or even the supermarkt because the library is also a torture. but today is beyond fine, the breeze makes me so thankful and the temp drops a bit degrees.
everybody is literally happy with today's weather i guess.
so this summer i rather feel excited because i get my enthusiasm into colors back!
yap i think i used to be a person who maintained the color scheme in my daily outfits, it wasn't that hardcore but at least i tried to have two pieces in the same color range. then this past year i got into the phase which i hate to mix and match colors i just loveeee neutrals, black and grey in particular.
well, i think some reasons why:
1. having 4 seasons makes me feel troublesome in choosing clothes.
especially because i am wearing Hijab. example is when i had a well matched top and trousers but then my top was with some kind of motive, print or ornament, so all i needed was a nice plain shawl but then it wasn't thick enough for winter all i had was a thicker Hijab in same color but it had motive too. so i prefer having all black, kinda easy to combine.
2. i was so nomadic
university things and stuffs i kept moving and i left my treasures somewhere to be picked later up when i got settled, i definitely didn't have the ability to bring a lot. so i chose some neutrals with me for a while i just wore them. definitely satisfying.
3. i was getting minimalist
was getting more and more and more inattentive about colors
4. darks make me feel covered and comfortable
and now voila!
its back.
i am so attracted to colors just exactly like the old days.
i consider purple and turquoise as my most fave color, but then i love the black-grey-white gang. then now pink even yellow and light blue are my current delights.
for God's sake i don't even know why this is happening to me, i always have my all time fave colors and some my current fave colors like, please dear self, isn't that similar to loving all the colors or even having no favorite? it keeps changing duh.
weird.
and yes i think i have also the my-secretive-fave-color, i just realized after seeing so many stuffs i have are basically in this color even if i never consider it as my fave.
can u guess which color is that?
salam!
June 29, 2015
tujuan
salam,
sudah malam, seharusnya aku sedang belajar atau mungkin baru selesai belajar, tapi tidak keduanya aku jalani. percaya sama aku, aku sudah duduk di belakang meja belajar dari pagi, tapi ya begitulah..
mungkin aku kurang motivasi,
atau kurang beryukur
atau kurang tahu diri
atau kurang mengerti
atau kurang pintar
atau kurang rajin
atau kurang yang lain.
aku belum mengerti kenapa aku harus belajar setengah mati, padahal tidak aku tahu tujuan ini semua dan kadang aku jadi beradu pendapat, tentang pentingnya tujuan.
beberapa percaya bahwa tujuan itu tidak perlu dicari, jalani dan ia akan menemukanmu pada akhirnya. ya, aku mengerti maksud kalian, seiring jalannya waktu gitu kan, atau paling mentok ibarat jalan yang salah membawa kita ke tempat yang benar, kan?
jujur ya, terdengar indah sekali. aku suka.
tapi bagiku, tujuan itu perlu. tujuan adalah kisi-kisi langkah yang sebaiknya aku ambil, adalah semangat dan motivasi. tujuan adalah motor pendorong disaat kaki lelah berlari.
rumit sih perasaanku ini. aku harap kamu jadi aku saja, biar kamu bisa mengerti tanpa perlu aku jelaskan.
tolong deh, bantu aku untuk sadar kalau jalan pikirku salah. bantu aku meluruskannya, ya..
tapi kalau aku salah saja.
tapi kalau benar, gimana?
kamu tahu?
kadang aku hanya ingin mengalah
tapi kadang aku bisa sangat keras kepala.
salam.
tertanda,
aku yang kali ini sebenarnya sedang keras kepala.
sudah malam, seharusnya aku sedang belajar atau mungkin baru selesai belajar, tapi tidak keduanya aku jalani. percaya sama aku, aku sudah duduk di belakang meja belajar dari pagi, tapi ya begitulah..
mungkin aku kurang motivasi,
atau kurang beryukur
atau kurang tahu diri
atau kurang mengerti
atau kurang pintar
atau kurang rajin
atau kurang yang lain.
aku belum mengerti kenapa aku harus belajar setengah mati, padahal tidak aku tahu tujuan ini semua dan kadang aku jadi beradu pendapat, tentang pentingnya tujuan.
beberapa percaya bahwa tujuan itu tidak perlu dicari, jalani dan ia akan menemukanmu pada akhirnya. ya, aku mengerti maksud kalian, seiring jalannya waktu gitu kan, atau paling mentok ibarat jalan yang salah membawa kita ke tempat yang benar, kan?
jujur ya, terdengar indah sekali. aku suka.
tapi bagiku, tujuan itu perlu. tujuan adalah kisi-kisi langkah yang sebaiknya aku ambil, adalah semangat dan motivasi. tujuan adalah motor pendorong disaat kaki lelah berlari.
rumit sih perasaanku ini. aku harap kamu jadi aku saja, biar kamu bisa mengerti tanpa perlu aku jelaskan.
tolong deh, bantu aku untuk sadar kalau jalan pikirku salah. bantu aku meluruskannya, ya..
tapi kalau aku salah saja.
tapi kalau benar, gimana?
kamu tahu?
kadang aku hanya ingin mengalah
tapi kadang aku bisa sangat keras kepala.
salam.
tertanda,
aku yang kali ini sebenarnya sedang keras kepala.
June 21, 2015
Ramadhan 2015 / 1436H - Stadtbürgerfest
Salam,
it's fourth day of ramadhan already... it's so amazing to be true that this is my third ramadhan in germany, i wrote once that the first ramadhan was the best (out of two) but i hope this year would be a blast too. so 18-19 hours fasting isn't a joke but thanks God these past days are rainy and cold so the throat don't feel like the sahara but i do get used to it after i did practice to fast in summer twice a week starting from april, so i guess i'm fine.
i'm just indefinite that i'm okay with my desire to buy things.
i normally am a type who keeps buying things even when those aren't necessary and when i can't buy food i keep and keep and keep looking for things........... live or virtually.
never a glimpse in my mind that i wanted to buy plastic plates while i didn't need em, but now i do.
in sake of their pattern cuteness.
or a floating pool balloon just for your drink meanwhile i don't swim.
in sake of it's color.
aside i guess i miss home and its Ramadhan hype, i always think to eat unaccompanied isn't that pleasant and the fact that sometime i skype friends to talk to when i eat is considered miserable.
but still is better alone than with somebody you don't wanna accompanied by.
weird i feel so alay because i feel so unloved lately i almost laugh at myself maybe i just miss my family too much... i arrange to fly home this August i hope it'll go well and smooth and save and sound.
fyi,
before ramadhan an International Stadtbürgerfest was held in the heart of Darmstadt, Luisenplatz!
it wasn't a huge kind of fest but still we were happy to see international crowds in the same place and time showing their culture and culiaries. we were so welcomed and the locals were so enthusiastic.
Indonesische Kultur- und Informationszentrum Darmstadt (translated Indonesian Culture and Information Centre Darmstadt) participated in this event and i was their cashier as we sold foodies.
the menus were Nasi Kuning, Gado-Gado, Siomay, Bakso, Sate Ayam, Rendang, Bubur Kacang Ijo, Bubur Ketan Hitam, Soda Gembira and Traditional Snacks such Klepon, Risoles, Martabak, Bakwan, Kue Dadar and some other that i can't even remember
and yes the best seller comes to....drumroll.......... Bakwan and Martabak!
both were first to sold out.
but unfortunately i was too busy to stroll around other booths and another indonesian booth (the Katholische Verein) *tears*
maybe next time:)
salam,
wish you a blessed Ramadhan
ps: all pictures are taken from IKID e.V's documentary
do not take without permission.
it's fourth day of ramadhan already... it's so amazing to be true that this is my third ramadhan in germany, i wrote once that the first ramadhan was the best (out of two) but i hope this year would be a blast too. so 18-19 hours fasting isn't a joke but thanks God these past days are rainy and cold so the throat don't feel like the sahara but i do get used to it after i did practice to fast in summer twice a week starting from april, so i guess i'm fine.
i'm just indefinite that i'm okay with my desire to buy things.
i normally am a type who keeps buying things even when those aren't necessary and when i can't buy food i keep and keep and keep looking for things........... live or virtually.
never a glimpse in my mind that i wanted to buy plastic plates while i didn't need em, but now i do.
in sake of their pattern cuteness.
or a floating pool balloon just for your drink meanwhile i don't swim.
in sake of it's color.
aside i guess i miss home and its Ramadhan hype, i always think to eat unaccompanied isn't that pleasant and the fact that sometime i skype friends to talk to when i eat is considered miserable.
but still is better alone than with somebody you don't wanna accompanied by.
weird i feel so alay because i feel so unloved lately i almost laugh at myself maybe i just miss my family too much... i arrange to fly home this August i hope it'll go well and smooth and save and sound.
fyi,
before ramadhan an International Stadtbürgerfest was held in the heart of Darmstadt, Luisenplatz!
it wasn't a huge kind of fest but still we were happy to see international crowds in the same place and time showing their culture and culiaries. we were so welcomed and the locals were so enthusiastic.
Indonesische Kultur- und Informationszentrum Darmstadt (translated Indonesian Culture and Information Centre Darmstadt) participated in this event and i was their cashier as we sold foodies.
the menus were Nasi Kuning, Gado-Gado, Siomay, Bakso, Sate Ayam, Rendang, Bubur Kacang Ijo, Bubur Ketan Hitam, Soda Gembira and Traditional Snacks such Klepon, Risoles, Martabak, Bakwan, Kue Dadar and some other that i can't even remember
and yes the best seller comes to....drumroll.......... Bakwan and Martabak!
both were first to sold out.
but unfortunately i was too busy to stroll around other booths and another indonesian booth (the Katholische Verein) *tears*
maybe next time:)
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salam,
wish you a blessed Ramadhan
ps: all pictures are taken from IKID e.V's documentary
do not take without permission.
May 31, 2015
Adeline
Salam,
How do you do, people?
Ok, so the first semester of the year is going to end soon, i really don't know how to feel.
Anyway...
If you know me in real life, guess you'll know enough that i'm a casual type of person in a tend to be messy that kind of stuff. And yesterday i just watched this The Age Of Adeline,
it's a warming love story:)
Salam.
How do you do, people?
Ok, so the first semester of the year is going to end soon, i really don't know how to feel.
Anyway...
If you know me in real life, guess you'll know enough that i'm a casual type of person in a tend to be messy that kind of stuff. And yesterday i just watched this The Age Of Adeline,
actually i don't really know how to express so it won't sound too much, but really the character of Adeline is so elegant and alluring and beautiful and charming and lovely i don't even know which adjective i should add. The way she talks and her nature is very impressing for me, a character worth a post lol. I don't know as well i can adore a ladylike, i mean look i looooove Rebecca Bloomwood, she is really a definition of impressing persona for me personally. I like Rose Dewitt Bukater but not that i am a big fan of the character, but this Adeline, am a huge fan! Absolutely a role, how kind of ladylike i would like to be like, hmm shoot i put too much like. Seriously, for the first time in my life i guess i fancy the idea of being a proper feminine. Ok, we all knew the Blake Lively is an essential factor to the character omg she's so gorgeous...she really is. And yes, i love how sweet and vintage her hair styled.
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this so Serena look and the appearance of iPhone are the only things that
remind me that the background of the film is 2014 as well.
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Salam.
April 01, 2015
the sweet tumblr
so i surf around the internet,
search some reference about anxiety disorders.
in curiousity and worrysome about this anxiety i might have.
i just wanted to know and be sure, that it doesnt cross the line.
and when i was tumblring i searched the word "anxiety"
then it popped:
i find that sweet, very sweet:)
salam..
search some reference about anxiety disorders.
in curiousity and worrysome about this anxiety i might have.
i just wanted to know and be sure, that it doesnt cross the line.
and when i was tumblring i searched the word "anxiety"
then it popped:
i find that sweet, very sweet:)
salam..
March 09, 2015
a note to my 30 years old self
hello there,
i hope you can read this which means you’re alive..
thanks for maintaining your health and thanks to Allah for letting us live this long.
please try not to laugh reading this haha i can imagine it lololol
darn it feels like i have an urge to interview you
how it feels like to be 30-ish? where are you now?
haha are you married? do you have children already?
are mom and dad still there? i wish they would..really wish. tell em i love them so much
how r you lately? i’m happy if you’re happy but if you are having hard time, just keep your head held high, go see your sides i believe you’ll have some people you can trust to share your thoughts with.
i hope you keep in touch with your old friends no matter how busy you are. i mean a simple hi and how do you do won’t hurt anybody, right?
i wish you’re married to the one you love, who understands, appreciates and loves you no matter how dark life is getting or how ugly and wrinkly you are, well you should be pretty actually hoho..
hopefully he would still silently smile at you when you buy too many shoes even when he sighs or shakes his head, listen to your gross jokes and treat you like the first time he fell for you no matter how long it has been passed.
i don't even dare wishing he would still try to eat when you cook shits, but at least he wouldn't get angry to see those kind of uneatable food on your dining table while he's so tired after work. hey, go order some delivery then.... i really hope you could keep up being a wife, or even better, that you already are a good one.
go complete and learn from each other. yes please keep loving each other more, guys..
is that true that having your own family feels like playing the real life sims? heard that sometime...
i wish you both take good care of you and your children (oops, you both have children already, don’t you?) i am wondering how many kiddos would running around and whether they eat well, or which school they’re going to.
and please tell me you can drive. i mean.….you should drive them somewhere or so don’t you?
i hope could see and correct grammatical mistakes in this writing lol
stop! don’t be mad, I’ve been living my whole life with suck grammar, but you cannot. you’d better be good at it^^
or i’ll slap you.
i’m starving by the way, last week i attempted to make the so called green tea pancake, yes physically it was sooo nice but i was doomed when i ate it. everything i cooked with my own hands ended up regrettable. so i wish you’ve improved my hands into angelic cooking mama’s hands
you know, i can’t promise where will i be on my 22nd birthday. like… gosh the paths i’m considering right now are gonna bring me to different you. just tell me you’re okay. am i wrong to worry about you this much? if only you could visited me from the future..
dear, so sorry i don’t know which step i should take to reach you right now, i wish i don’t disappoint you.. if i did, please forgive me.
my bad that i haven’t known myself that well to get the idea which kind of you i wanna be, i’m trying to figure that out. and i’m sorry for all the over thoughts and confusions i keep lingering to, hopefully you are done with them and living your life to the fullest.
some friends asked what on earth I’ve been doing these past years and i find it backbreaking to explain how the system works here. and now that i think i’ve realized that its not working anymore on me, of course some or more are going to ask why.. some friends will probably demand a detailed chronology, some other people are gonna judge or talk behind my back pitying me. but it’s okay..
you know this girl, she’s close to me. if she hears me saying this, she’d say those kind of people aren’t deserve to be called friend.
i’ll probably shut all my senses right now, i only want to feel my inner voices. i know i feel fail already, i only pray they'll bring me to the right you and i don’t fail you, mom and dad in the end.
and fyi i probably have some people currently hating me, but i hope they don’t hate you anymore. please be happy no matter where you are..
and healthy
and wealthy
and lovely
yes you may laugh if you find this silly XP
sincerely,
your 21 years old self
i hope you can read this which means you’re alive..
thanks for maintaining your health and thanks to Allah for letting us live this long.
please try not to laugh reading this haha i can imagine it lololol
darn it feels like i have an urge to interview you
how it feels like to be 30-ish? where are you now?
haha are you married? do you have children already?
are mom and dad still there? i wish they would..really wish. tell em i love them so much
how r you lately? i’m happy if you’re happy but if you are having hard time, just keep your head held high, go see your sides i believe you’ll have some people you can trust to share your thoughts with.
i hope you keep in touch with your old friends no matter how busy you are. i mean a simple hi and how do you do won’t hurt anybody, right?
i wish you’re married to the one you love, who understands, appreciates and loves you no matter how dark life is getting or how ugly and wrinkly you are, well you should be pretty actually hoho..
hopefully he would still silently smile at you when you buy too many shoes even when he sighs or shakes his head, listen to your gross jokes and treat you like the first time he fell for you no matter how long it has been passed.
i don't even dare wishing he would still try to eat when you cook shits, but at least he wouldn't get angry to see those kind of uneatable food on your dining table while he's so tired after work. hey, go order some delivery then.... i really hope you could keep up being a wife, or even better, that you already are a good one.
go complete and learn from each other. yes please keep loving each other more, guys..
is that true that having your own family feels like playing the real life sims? heard that sometime...
i wish you both take good care of you and your children (oops, you both have children already, don’t you?) i am wondering how many kiddos would running around and whether they eat well, or which school they’re going to.
and please tell me you can drive. i mean.….you should drive them somewhere or so don’t you?
i hope could see and correct grammatical mistakes in this writing lol
stop! don’t be mad, I’ve been living my whole life with suck grammar, but you cannot. you’d better be good at it^^
or i’ll slap you.
i’m starving by the way, last week i attempted to make the so called green tea pancake, yes physically it was sooo nice but i was doomed when i ate it. everything i cooked with my own hands ended up regrettable. so i wish you’ve improved my hands into angelic cooking mama’s hands
you know, i can’t promise where will i be on my 22nd birthday. like… gosh the paths i’m considering right now are gonna bring me to different you. just tell me you’re okay. am i wrong to worry about you this much? if only you could visited me from the future..
dear, so sorry i don’t know which step i should take to reach you right now, i wish i don’t disappoint you.. if i did, please forgive me.
my bad that i haven’t known myself that well to get the idea which kind of you i wanna be, i’m trying to figure that out. and i’m sorry for all the over thoughts and confusions i keep lingering to, hopefully you are done with them and living your life to the fullest.
some friends asked what on earth I’ve been doing these past years and i find it backbreaking to explain how the system works here. and now that i think i’ve realized that its not working anymore on me, of course some or more are going to ask why.. some friends will probably demand a detailed chronology, some other people are gonna judge or talk behind my back pitying me. but it’s okay..
you know this girl, she’s close to me. if she hears me saying this, she’d say those kind of people aren’t deserve to be called friend.
i’ll probably shut all my senses right now, i only want to feel my inner voices. i know i feel fail already, i only pray they'll bring me to the right you and i don’t fail you, mom and dad in the end.
and fyi i probably have some people currently hating me, but i hope they don’t hate you anymore. please be happy no matter where you are..
and healthy
and wealthy
and lovely
yes you may laugh if you find this silly XP
sincerely,
your 21 years old self
January 31, 2015
menjelang ujian
Desperate Houswives Students season 1
T : (bertanya tentang pelajaran)
N : (menjawab)
T : (tidak mengerti)
N : (ingat ujian dan mulai panik)
T : ibarat main plant vs zombie, matahari gue baru ada 150, plant gun gue baru atu, belom ada buah dan panen matahari, eh zombie wave udah keluar ae
N: zombienya yang pake ember besi semua lagi.
ah, namanya juga studen
harap maklum ya
salam,
yang lagi dilanda balada ujian
T : (bertanya tentang pelajaran)
N : (menjawab)
T : (tidak mengerti)
N : (ingat ujian dan mulai panik)
T : ibarat main plant vs zombie, matahari gue baru ada 150, plant gun gue baru atu, belom ada buah dan panen matahari, eh zombie wave udah keluar ae
N: zombienya yang pake ember besi semua lagi.
ah, namanya juga studen
harap maklum ya
salam,
yang lagi dilanda balada ujian
January 23, 2015
cerita tentang tahun lalu
salam,
salju sudah berhenti turun, tapi musim dingin masih menancap tegar di udara hessen. januari hampir berakhir, ujian sudah memanggil. desember 2014 saat salju turun masih segar rasanya ingatan tentang Feststellungsprüfung di akhir tahun 2013, leganya setelah ujian itu berakhir dan santainya menghabiskan waktu kosong hingga awal tahun. saya pergi ke pasar natal, secara konkret itu adalah kali pertama saya pergi ke pasar natal. terkesan, menyenangkan. bayangkan, betapa menyenangkan waktu itu rasanya ketika ujian berhasil dilewatkan dan ada beberapa teman baik yang bisa menemani melepas ketegangan otak pasca ujian dan packing pindahan.
dingin sekali udara hari ini, menusuk sekali.
semakin aja saya kangen udara jakarta, rindu sekali rasanya.. ya, panasnya jakarta pun saya kangenin. lucu sebenarnya kalo ingat selama saya pulang februari tahun lalu, there was not a thing bothering me...panasnya, riweuhnya, bisingnya bahkan macetnya pun saya nikmati dengan senang hati. cuma yang saya sesalkan cuma satu, kecepatan internet di tanah air yang sangat lamban pernah bikin saya merasa kalang kabut karena harus ikut pendaftaran online, tapi lagi-lagi, koneksinya menyebalkan.
kamu tau, semakin lama saya disini semakin saya tau betapa kacaunya tanah air dan betapa tertatanya negeri tempat saya menulis post ini, tapi anehnya semakin saya rindu tanah air.
pernah suatu hari saya pergi keluar dengan ibu saya, saya hanya mengenakan pakaian seadanya yang tersisa di lemari, saya gak banyak ambil pusing karena memang gak perlu pusing. kalau di jerman, saya harus cek perkiraan suhu dulu, apakah hari itu akan hujan, panas, turun salju, temperaturnya berapa, ya biar gak salah kostum. lalu masuk mobil, gak perlu saya nunggu tram yang kalo telat semenit dua menit harus nunggu tram selanjutnya dateng dulu. dan yang paling spontan, saking nyamannya, saya masuk mobil tanpa membawa apapun selain handphone saya. simple freedom: saya gak harus parno apa saya sudah bawa kunci rumah dan paspor.
satu tahun sudah saya di jerman, saat saya liburan di indonesia tahun lalu, tapi satu tahun itu bagai gak pernah ada lho. kebiasaan saya masih aja kayak saya gak pernah ke sini, memang 18 tahun di tanah air dan 1 tahun di eropa belum bisa setara, setinggi apapun excitementnya. saya masih suka jajan tahu gejrot di pinggir jalan, masih suka buang sampah sembarangan (uh my bad:p) cuma yang gak saya sadarin cuma speed berjalan kaki saya agak lebih cepat dibanding orang-orang sekitar, itu pun saat saya lagi gak sadar aja...
banyak orang indonesia yang meninggalkan indonesia dengan bangga dan gembira, tapi saya bukan. bukan sepenuhnya bergembira.
banyak orang indonesia yang ingin pergi meninggalkan indonesia, saya sudah meninggalkan indonesia dan berencana kembali.
be gold, tanah airku.
karena seindah-indahnya rumah orang lain, lebih nyaman rumah sendiri.
salam,
yang belum bisa move on dari indonesia
salju sudah berhenti turun, tapi musim dingin masih menancap tegar di udara hessen. januari hampir berakhir, ujian sudah memanggil. desember 2014 saat salju turun masih segar rasanya ingatan tentang Feststellungsprüfung di akhir tahun 2013, leganya setelah ujian itu berakhir dan santainya menghabiskan waktu kosong hingga awal tahun. saya pergi ke pasar natal, secara konkret itu adalah kali pertama saya pergi ke pasar natal. terkesan, menyenangkan. bayangkan, betapa menyenangkan waktu itu rasanya ketika ujian berhasil dilewatkan dan ada beberapa teman baik yang bisa menemani melepas ketegangan otak pasca ujian dan packing pindahan.
dingin sekali udara hari ini, menusuk sekali.
semakin aja saya kangen udara jakarta, rindu sekali rasanya.. ya, panasnya jakarta pun saya kangenin. lucu sebenarnya kalo ingat selama saya pulang februari tahun lalu, there was not a thing bothering me...panasnya, riweuhnya, bisingnya bahkan macetnya pun saya nikmati dengan senang hati. cuma yang saya sesalkan cuma satu, kecepatan internet di tanah air yang sangat lamban pernah bikin saya merasa kalang kabut karena harus ikut pendaftaran online, tapi lagi-lagi, koneksinya menyebalkan.
kamu tau, semakin lama saya disini semakin saya tau betapa kacaunya tanah air dan betapa tertatanya negeri tempat saya menulis post ini, tapi anehnya semakin saya rindu tanah air.
pernah suatu hari saya pergi keluar dengan ibu saya, saya hanya mengenakan pakaian seadanya yang tersisa di lemari, saya gak banyak ambil pusing karena memang gak perlu pusing. kalau di jerman, saya harus cek perkiraan suhu dulu, apakah hari itu akan hujan, panas, turun salju, temperaturnya berapa, ya biar gak salah kostum. lalu masuk mobil, gak perlu saya nunggu tram yang kalo telat semenit dua menit harus nunggu tram selanjutnya dateng dulu. dan yang paling spontan, saking nyamannya, saya masuk mobil tanpa membawa apapun selain handphone saya. simple freedom: saya gak harus parno apa saya sudah bawa kunci rumah dan paspor.
satu tahun sudah saya di jerman, saat saya liburan di indonesia tahun lalu, tapi satu tahun itu bagai gak pernah ada lho. kebiasaan saya masih aja kayak saya gak pernah ke sini, memang 18 tahun di tanah air dan 1 tahun di eropa belum bisa setara, setinggi apapun excitementnya. saya masih suka jajan tahu gejrot di pinggir jalan, masih suka buang sampah sembarangan (uh my bad:p) cuma yang gak saya sadarin cuma speed berjalan kaki saya agak lebih cepat dibanding orang-orang sekitar, itu pun saat saya lagi gak sadar aja...
banyak orang indonesia yang meninggalkan indonesia dengan bangga dan gembira, tapi saya bukan. bukan sepenuhnya bergembira.
banyak orang indonesia yang ingin pergi meninggalkan indonesia, saya sudah meninggalkan indonesia dan berencana kembali.
be gold, tanah airku.
karena seindah-indahnya rumah orang lain, lebih nyaman rumah sendiri.
salam,
yang belum bisa move on dari indonesia
January 09, 2015
January 08, 2015
two
salam,
hi readers.
freaky isnt it? its 2015 already.
LIKE OMG i'm gonna be 21 in a few months from now hu i'm not ready for this.
so the weather shows its 6 degree celcius out there i'm lying on my bed with the oh so lovely blanket unfortunately too lazy to make myself a cup of warm drink.
spent the 3 weeks winter holiday on the same spot where i'm lying right now is somehow relaxing yet frustrating.
relaxing like been waiting for this holiday the whole december,
eh..haven't i told you?
oh yes this head is keep saying that i'll post something later about my university life but yea i didn't do it lol. i wrote em i swear they preserved nicely on my draft or note but it feels that they don't really express my thoughts ckck, forget it. long story short i am now living in Darmstadt. a biotechnology student first year struggling with the learning materials and of course the language (almost everything actually). i'll write abt it later probably, probably.
so go back
relaxing like been waiting for this holiday the whole december (the third month in my first semester, when i still adapt with the speed of unis) and when its finally here yeayyyy i couldn't be happier. i ate and slept well even did some hobbies. but frustrating as well because i procrastinated almost every plan i made to study on this winter break, it means i have to keep up in full speed which involve more stress. ah yea i didn't really procrastinate, i dumped those plans. and the most annoying one is this homesick feeling.
because (please turn a sad music on)
tomorrow two years ago, i flew from home and landed safely in Germany
two years, not quite a short time but actually long enough a be a pretty good speaker of the native language but shoot i am so bad at deutsch i wanna cry. or long enough to be well integrated but i have not. or long enough to have some native friends but i do still find it uneasy.
i miss home so much.
i wish i could see my family every time such this longing punch me real on my face.
this is what i hate when i feel this way, everything seems so sad and blue and so wrong.
the yearning soul,
salam.
hi readers.
freaky isnt it? its 2015 already.
LIKE OMG i'm gonna be 21 in a few months from now hu i'm not ready for this.
so the weather shows its 6 degree celcius out there i'm lying on my bed with the oh so lovely blanket unfortunately too lazy to make myself a cup of warm drink.
spent the 3 weeks winter holiday on the same spot where i'm lying right now is somehow relaxing yet frustrating.
relaxing like been waiting for this holiday the whole december,
eh..haven't i told you?
oh yes this head is keep saying that i'll post something later about my university life but yea i didn't do it lol. i wrote em i swear they preserved nicely on my draft or note but it feels that they don't really express my thoughts ckck, forget it. long story short i am now living in Darmstadt. a biotechnology student first year struggling with the learning materials and of course the language (almost everything actually). i'll write abt it later probably, probably.
so go back
relaxing like been waiting for this holiday the whole december (the third month in my first semester, when i still adapt with the speed of unis) and when its finally here yeayyyy i couldn't be happier. i ate and slept well even did some hobbies. but frustrating as well because i procrastinated almost every plan i made to study on this winter break, it means i have to keep up in full speed which involve more stress. ah yea i didn't really procrastinate, i dumped those plans. and the most annoying one is this homesick feeling.
because (please turn a sad music on)
tomorrow two years ago, i flew from home and landed safely in Germany
two years, not quite a short time but actually long enough a be a pretty good speaker of the native language but shoot i am so bad at deutsch i wanna cry. or long enough to be well integrated but i have not. or long enough to have some native friends but i do still find it uneasy.
i miss home so much.
i wish i could see my family every time such this longing punch me real on my face.
this is what i hate when i feel this way, everything seems so sad and blue and so wrong.
the yearning soul,
salam.
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