hello there,
i hope you can read this which means you’re alive..
thanks for maintaining your health and thanks to Allah for letting us live this long.
please try not to laugh reading this haha i can imagine it lololol
darn it feels like i have an urge to interview you
how it feels like to be 30-ish? where are you now?
haha are you married? do you have children already?
are mom and dad still there? i wish they would..really wish. tell em i love them so much
how r you lately? i’m happy if you’re happy but if you are having hard time, just keep your head held high, go see your sides i believe you’ll have some people you can trust to share your thoughts with.
i hope you keep in touch with your old friends no matter how busy you are. i mean a simple hi and how do you do won’t hurt anybody, right?
i wish you’re married to the one you love, who understands, appreciates and loves you no matter how dark life is getting or how ugly and wrinkly you are, well you should be pretty actually hoho..
hopefully he would still silently smile at you when you buy too many shoes even when he sighs or shakes his head, listen to your gross jokes and treat you like the first time he fell for you no matter how long it has been passed.
i don't even dare wishing he would still try to eat when you cook shits, but at least he wouldn't get angry to see those kind of uneatable food on your dining table while he's so tired after work. hey, go order some delivery then.... i really hope you could keep up being a wife, or even better, that you already are a good one.
go complete and learn from each other. yes please keep loving each other more, guys..
is that true that having your own family feels like playing the real life sims? heard that sometime...
i wish you both take good care of you and your children (oops, you both have children already, don’t you?) i am wondering how many kiddos would running around and whether they eat well, or which school they’re going to.
and please tell me you can drive. i mean.….you should drive them somewhere or so don’t you?
i hope could see and correct grammatical mistakes in this writing lol
stop! don’t be mad, I’ve been living my whole life with suck grammar, but you cannot. you’d better be good at it^^
or i’ll slap you.
i’m starving by the way, last week i attempted to make the so called green tea pancake, yes physically it was sooo nice but i was doomed when i ate it. everything i cooked with my own hands ended up regrettable. so i wish you’ve improved my hands into angelic cooking mama’s hands
you know, i can’t promise where will i be on my 22nd birthday. like… gosh the paths i’m considering right now are gonna bring me to different you. just tell me you’re okay. am i wrong to worry about you this much? if only you could visited me from the future..
dear, so sorry i don’t know which step i should take to reach you right now, i wish i don’t disappoint you.. if i did, please forgive me.
my bad that i haven’t known myself that well to get the idea which kind of you i wanna be, i’m trying to figure that out. and i’m sorry for all the over thoughts and confusions i keep lingering to, hopefully you are done with them and living your life to the fullest.
some friends asked what on earth I’ve been doing these past years and i find it backbreaking to explain how the system works here. and now that i think i’ve realized that its not working anymore on me, of course some or more are going to ask why.. some friends will probably demand a detailed chronology, some other people are gonna judge or talk behind my back pitying me. but it’s okay..
you know this girl, she’s close to me. if she hears me saying this, she’d say those kind of people aren’t deserve to be called friend.
i’ll probably shut all my senses right now, i only want to feel my inner voices. i know i feel fail already, i only pray they'll bring me to the right you and i don’t fail you, mom and dad in the end.
and fyi i probably have some people currently hating me, but i hope they don’t hate you anymore. please be happy no matter where you are..
and healthy
and wealthy
and lovely
yes you may laugh if you find this silly XP
sincerely,
your 21 years old self
